I'm not going to church tomorrow. With this evening's verdict, there
will be yet another reason for more bile and hatred from the pulpit for
people like me, straight white males.
I've actually taken seminary classes and I did find them to be life
changing. I have also come to realize that the school would kick me out
once they found out more about my political beliefs. Things like being
an NRA Life Member, being the proud holder of a Rifleman patch from the
Appleseed project and being a straight white male. Even if I did make
it through to get a M. Div., the Ministerial Fellowship Comittee would
never accept me because of my political, not theological, beliefs.
Do I feel a call? Absolutely and it sucks. I still feel driven to
become a minister so that I can help others in need, so I can bring
peace to some troubled souls. I'm just at a real loss on how to
proceed.
I'm not suffering a crisis of faith, my faith is stronger than it has
ever been, but my beliefs in churches are weaker than ever.
I'm really struggling.
